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（抱歉，麻烦那些华文阅读障碍的朋友们，就得靠网上翻译器来读这篇了！）   不知不觉中，时光已冲冲。   当了1年10个月的啊兵哥，终于即将退伍了。   这段即费力又费时，却吃力不讨好的工作，造就了我这两年来的集体美好回忆。 但，这两年，也失去了两位在这段时间中可说是情同手足的好兄弟，好战友。   还记得初次踏进基本军事训练时，心里是多么的坎坷。慢慢地，我学会了基本战术，也当起了在部队里为人 “妈妈” 的责任。时间回到现在，2019 年得五月，我已是一名三级上士，带领着我的兵士们，过关斩将，连闯本地和外地的辽阔草原。   我未必是个好的领导人，但是， 我尽我全力，来开发他们的才能与领导能力。   那有些读者就会问起往后的打算。。。我只能说，随缘吧！   有时间再与你们继续分享心得。 -Ryan 子彬- 2019年5月2日

无奈，等待。 Time is running out. Every visit I made, the heart wrenching moments just multiply in numbers. Why must it end this way? I always blamed myself, for not being there for her when it happened, not taking care of her well enough, and spending too less time with her. It really aches my heart to see her like this, while she places her trademark smile whenever we visit her over the weekends. No one understands me. All will tell me that it’s just part and parcel of life, but is it?

And... we have arrived at the end of another year! This was really an eventful year for me, regardless of life in or outside of camp. The urge to type down my thoughts and encounters is there. But I can hardly squeeze the time to do so, given the fact that I probably sleep less than 7 hours these days in camp. Fret not though, I have the rest of the year to ponder about my future direction to head in.. time did fly by, fast enough to be left with 4 months, but slow enough for me to realise that there are not many people I can confide in. The working world is a double edged sword of its own, scale with caution or face some action, noone’s gonna save you from the brutal truth. The nature of my work now bars me from saying much, but I’ve downloaded my Ask.fm again for you guys out there to ask me stuff! Meanwhile, let me think of how I am going to type down my thoughts.. till then, https://ask.fm/Ry4nLimP3i -Ryan 子彬- 17 Dec 2018

你，还好吗？ 有一段时间没问候了。 现在，相信你在大学，已找到属于你的一片天，你喜爱的活动。或许，你也找到了其余伴侣。 七年了，这么久的时间，却有着一个傻瓜，至今还傻乎乎地忙着，试图把重复摔碎的碎片黏回。 有些话，很难以文字写下。但是，过去式，已无法挽回。只能继续，往前走。 -ryan zibin- 22 January 2018

Hi Guys, Back after a long while, this time months into my life in green. I enlisted into the army a few months back, and I pretty much havnt had time to talk much about it, because you know, there isn’t even time to start of with. The regimental lifestyle is not much of an issue for me, it’s how the people you meet are able to gel together to get stuff down. So far, my journey in has seen the same results across the places I am attached to, resulting in unnecessary conflicts and auch. However, I believe that time runs out for everyone, you can dislike the person today, but when the person turns out to be of a good leader in the future, the past will be back to haunt. Can’t divulge much either for the fear of slapped charges, but all’s well, I believe time will fly by quickly. -ryan zibin- 7 November 2017

How time flies, this blog has been around for 5 years! Up till now, this small frame of free writing at least is still a place for me to freely express my thoughts and feelings. Thank you for the support for those who do pop by once in a while to see me pen down my nonsensical thoughts, as well for the times I really needed an avenue to vent some emotions. Well for these time, time really flies as titled. I'm arriving at the last week of my internship!! It was an eventful time with my attached organisation I must say, I get to come into all aspects of different functions related to my course. It was also there where I get to see examples of the meaning "People come, people go". I am a sentimental person for those who know me, people who I have met and had a chance to know them better, chances are I will be emotionally attached to them as friends. Therefore it's really sad when you have to see people leave. However, I have gotten myself to suppress these feelings ...