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Andro!if u r still reading this blog pls tell me somehow?LOL Okay,back to topic,only two ppl knew the exsistence of my blog,so everything that is said,shall stay here and go nowhere else.ARE U READY?? K,now the problem all started with animals and it drew a nasty border btwn best friends.time progresses,things get more complicated,now everyone seemed to be siding the "animal"instead of the victim,but for the victim,thr are always ppl on standby for her.If anything is going to happen,they will protect her at all costs. Moral of the story?dun be a heartless cold blooded animal,bitch. -.-

Just hope that i will be able to forget bout her again...Yl help me!!!!

Not sure if andro will read this aft what i last told her ytd morning...Haix...deleted her blog,not sure hows shes feeling now...4:40 in the morning n i guess shes sleeping??LOL! ^^ alright,back to topic...at least i aint alone now...that day aft sec 1 registration stayed back until 1+ coz i nidda chat with mr seetoh bout cca and have lunch in sch..upon leaving school saw suganthi khairul aaron!!!we plus limin valerie and santhini went to the food centre at jln kukoh...limin was like quiet the whole journey....didnt know if she was still thinking thaat i like her?!?!LOL Aft they are done,khairul and santhini went home while the others went to the bus stop.then aaron came up with an idea to joyride buses at boon lay.we missed 51 when we agreed!!sp waited anth 10 min more for the next one...we took a mrt from jurong east to boon lay and we caught on 193 to tuas with aaron carrying his trunk!!We had a very bad experience there and we quickly took on 192 back to boon lay...made aaron...

Its 4:20,and life still goes on...just hope that i will be able to talk to nic somehow??pity him...

Haix...jst founded out that anth couple gone...pris didnt took care of my nic well...and now hes just left thr...alone...i know his feelings to the max coz to be honest,i got rejected many times b4 and once its very harsh,i rmb i climbed under my blanket and started crying...u just wanted to continue crying non stop.u feel a type of "sourness" in ur body and ur mind is telling ya "I WANT HE/HER" and u just kept emoing...this thing happened to me in sec 1,not gonna mention who though!!! ^*^ so yea,up till now,when i go to sch,i put on a strong front,smile laugh play study...but at home,the memories and shadows of rejections still exsists.Ppl whom u think are active in sch(KS,damien,chan,darryl lo) All aft sch take mrt with me all so emo,so things dum just stop at surfacd.u gonna explore and find out deep inside,who are you waiting for?. ;)

Mentioned that yl is my top 10 besties...so gonna list them down in no order...diff class next yr,but still besties!! ^^ Guru Trina Aaron Yl Maegs Chan Jing hao Fecho GH President lo!! BFFs. ^^

I think that i seriously needa stop acting like that...right,i know i like her,but even so thr's still someone shes waitin for~why bother giving up her for a girl u know which wun last???i seriously needa talk to yl...Its like,Yl knows my ups and downs,happiness and sorrows coz we both went through the same thing b4,and we got kidda of the same results.she will give me advice on what to do and so on...so yea,Yl is my top 10 bestie!! •^^• know that she might still be thinking bout damien,but i really hope that she can move on in life,u see,damien is fine,but he is like...not perfect?lOl...and i wonder why she only liked him in sec 2 when they know each other since pri sch?lol...kk,stOp bloggin for now.. :) P.S:YL, where are you now!!?

yl when are you back....got lots of things to tell ya...hehe. ^^v Come back quickly,i dunno what do le....need anth chat buddy aka bestie to talk to...haix... :(

Was Alright today till i read her whole blog...haix...to think that i still stand a chance...guessed that shes still corncerned of DWHL aft all...haix...dunno what to say if we are gonna chat ltr on..i choose her over the former and yet all my feelings are wasted agn??idk...i know i will get rejected,but not that soon right... End.. =( Haiz haiz...time to serious le

Ytd talk to her on whatsapp...mentioned a hint that i might leave her and she got it.Well,its best to do so when the seeds arent grown yet...when the plants are already out,its too lat..... :(

Haix...she used to be good frens with me...now?even if she is sitting the same table as me...haix...she n si hua were besties,but now both of them arent close to me at all.Seriously,i want all of this to end...i want to get back all my best friends，if possible,turn back time.... :(

Yup,I may had said it over and over agn,but to be honest,i dun even know when its true and when its not....hmm...shall try saying it to her tonight!!LOLOL!!!wonder what her reaction will be... |:

Aft reading Andro's blog aft dinner,I was shocked to see the 2 newest posts on her blog.This shows that her blog was a way to write down all her sorrows,her fun times,her sad times.Main point,Damien wasnt that impt to her anymore.So? that wun mean anything to me...but that is a major thing for her i guess??!She did treat Damien the best she could,but damien...guessed hes the same like me...hope that shes chilled already...Shall get back to MSN-ing!!! ^^ Ry4nLimP3i ^^ 

Kk,maybe the title isnt right aft all... :/ time to reflect....am i right to do this aft all??u know that she still has someone,why be the third party to break them up?are u sure that u are going to suceed??my heart's in a very big mess right now....yi ling come back soon!!!!needa talk to u!!!!or shud i look for my "counsillor"??LOL!!! ^o^

Yup,havnt did this for a long time...since March?? This is always a torture for me because i know I'm gonna hurt a girl agn and it's not the first time I had done that to her already...but Im extremely sorry MEL!!!I think im gonna hurt u agn.... </3 guessd that u are right aft all...couples cant patch....hope u find ur new love.....just gonna move on with life.... On the other hand,this meant that i am left with her...gonna try to win her heart,no matter what it takes...hope sch reopens soon so that i could see her... Lastly,i juz want to tell the other girl... I LUV U!!!!! awkward max!!!  >.<

Yup...falling in love isnt fun...used to rmb when i was still a very young boy"mummy,when can i get married?"LOL.. This whole yr,i had enough of love.For now,its sort of a love crisis for me becoz im in love agn...but i have to find a way to open my heart to her...which i can coz when i chat with her is like always the same old things de...then always LOL or haha then nth much to talk about...now,i only bope that i cam confess to her because i really cant resist it anymore!!!even when i know shes gonna reject me... =(

Wishlist!!!! Ok...learnt this during council retreat from Bob and team!! "set goals for ur future and work towards it"so i shall start off with his 100 wishlist! ^^(i will do 10 per week) 1)i want everyone impt to me to be happy! =D 2)i want to choose the correct choice 3)i want to have a new love by feb/mar?(LOL) 4)i want to score high grades 5)i want to be proud of myself 6)I wanna take neos with my besties!! ;) 7)wanna take anth neo with her... ;0 8)crush or devotion?? 9)score well in o levels 10)Lastly，i wanna go to JC

Bet that next year is gonna be another year of heartbreaking moments...

Dunno wth happened to me this yr,got in love with two girls at the same time....one aft another,hearts break one by one....and today,this problem,or habit,once agn came to me....HATE MY FEELINGS!!!Both of them have their pros and cons,but i gotta choose....really confused right now...rmb the night b4 where i hugged my domo (YES,childish right!!!) tightly becoz i dun wanna let u go ,but both of them are on par....this nightmare is gonna last till the day i wanna choose... :/

YO!!!! First blog post.... This blog will be know to those ppl I trust the most..so yea..now only got 1..LOL!!! ^^ This blog will also contain some secrets that I hope(pray hard)stays in this blog only.ENjoy!!! XD