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Woke up in the middle of the night just to the horror being reminded in my dreams of doing all those things that hurt people this year... I want to say sorry to those i did, as it was really not an excuse to say i did it for my friends.ITS NOT AN EXCUSE. zibinx

Haix...sick. :( Hope i recover soon!!! Will be back on bloggIn soon! ;)

I'm really,really sad right now... 😭 It's like, you are playing with my feelings ya? Everyday, EVERY SINGLE DAY I SEE YOU AND HIM TOGETHER, it just really made me 💔. Yes we chat, but you dont even have the intention to. You must be wondering, why, WHY AM I SUCH A BASTARD, WHY AM I STILL CLINGING ONTO YOU, WHY!!!! At the end of the day, there's only one reason, because i still want you back. :(

I really, really owe elissa an apology. Right now, we still tend to ignore one another,but at least things werent as bad as before. :] Zibinx ^^

All hopes gone...my dream of patching...just stayed as a dream. That dream, bought me back to earth in just seconds,but i have no intention of giving it up.1 day,i will go to venus and have u back agn by my side,having fun tgt,taking neos. :) Yours sincerely, Zibinx ^^

Long, long time since i last blogged something major. I'm not really sure who knows my blog now, but probably most of them girls. I'm very sure Trina knows, so is YL, Andro, XM and SPM. So i hope that writing my secrets here is safe. Guess that if piggy sees this shes gonna ask me loads of questions when school reopens!! Who's piggy? For me to know and you to find out!! ;p SO, new rules for my blog: 1) No personal attacks 2) more secrets revealed (looking forward??? ^^) 3) frequent juicy updates! STAY TUNED!! XD Ry4nLimP3i 2012

Time flies. :( 1st term of sec 3 life is gone alrd.managed to save my grades,not my life though...see how it goes first...

Haix,troubled by this topic agn... Like here like there,come back still like her...it really hurts when she said that she didnt like me,coz all these while im waiting for her.Right now,i might be liking other girls,but deep down in my heart,i still love u. zibinx©2012

Haix...a disaster in Sch tdy...actually supposed to celebrate for our unit getting silver today..but fall in that time Guan Lin was like gl-ing us by pretending to march..and it infuriated Jing Hao which was the trigger point for him...so we were ordered to go and wash our plastic cups and aft washing Jing Hao went to ask Guan Lin not to gl us and what is he doing.then Guan Lin wasnt happy and that situation lasted for a few minutes before he and his friends finally "left"...and then he came back with Jun Jie and Noey came shortly after,then Woo Seong too came...all eyes were on Jing Hao.i helped jing hao to keep a lookout for his dad at the canteen...then suddenly, bang!-slamming of the canteen benches- "COME HERE!!JING HAO!! U BETTER COME HERE!!" Then one of his friend came with a wrenc and tried to attack,it was a scary moment.Woo Seong was held back by Noey and Gang.He really wanted to whack Jing Hao alrd...then Mr Lim TL came by and saw it,so he held Woo Seong...

Long long time since i updated my blog.. You disappointed me much.u betrayed my love for u.u shattered my heart.u took advantage of my feelings to stage ur revenge.enough is enough.right now,i struggle to forget u.then i believe u and ur besties will be thr laughing,mocking at me.im just a pawn to u guys.get out of my life!!! >:

Somehow,my favourite song seems to be Mama Mia now!! LOL

I just dun get it.i really dun. -heartbroken- U said u nvr felt anything for what i had done for the past few mths?i tried my best...i adapted to ur style,i changed for u,but it seems like u r still giving me the cold shoulder! :'( i love you,i really really do,i want u to be mine agn,dun u get it? :(

Went to the shop for the 2nd time today but the auntie agn not there..planned to get her a gift for valentines。haix...is this fate? :( looks like shes only gonna have a teddy bear,chocolate and roses...HAIX!!!! >

"Sometimes,we take life for granted.sometimes,we get irritated of living.but one thing's for sure,life is nvr deprived of thrills and fun. :)" However,dun ruin ur life at such a young age.I HOPE THAT EVERYTHING POSTED HERE WILL BE KEPT HERE AND NOT LEAKED OUT. ;)

Sometimes,i ever asked myself if i should change the blog name,so that i once agn closed myself from the doors to the world... Going back to toPic,ytd went with XM n Adler(he should be otw to China Alrd!! ^^) tiong.On the way,we met someone who told XM to break friendship with me.Like seriously,just becoz of ur Personal hatred towards me will cost me my friendship??at least my "sis" doesnt think that way.dumb.dun ever think i didnt knew what u were doing behind my back,hate me?hate me more then.becoz its nvr Possible to break my relationship with my siblings and besties. Then at tiong we went to look for that teddy bear 3D puzzle and otw back aft late lunch we saw mdm lee!! ^^.ytd night wasnt enjoyable at all as well.quarreled with her agn...haix...when will this ever stop?? :(

Frustrated,sad,emo,worried.when will u ever know to care for me? ❤

How to explain whats going on in my heart now...it like mIxed feelings.i know something bout my bestie but i cant do anything to help her.SPM also liddat.Hard to explain...haix... :/

Its time to list anth 10 BFFs agn!! ^^ 1)Run An 2)XM 3)SPM 4)milton 5)adler 6)shanger 7)nicholas!! 8)hansen 9)jiewei 10)sande! Forever rmb u guys!! ^^

Ytd by accident saw something i shouldnt see... > but then it only tells me that i shouldnt look at things on the surface...ytd shes just sitting by the spiral staircase doing her hw...haix...this is what they meant by behind closed doors?LOL.blog ltr agn.

End of week 2 and hw are already accumulating~ anw,that isnt a Prob coz my biggest prob is still mel...guess that shes still mad that i liked someone else...back tO topic,im still fightin for her love. ^^ It might be harsh,it might be tough,but i still perservered. Still waiting for 22/03/2012 to arrive. :)

Yea,gonna talk boutbthe subjuct i hated the most... So yea,sec sch love stories are pretty pathetic.Tried my luck in sec 1 and got ended up leaving me crying!? :( At least Trina wasnt that bad when she rejected me... :) Then sec 2 life came and I was chosen for [os]2 and met a pretty kind girl named melinda~ Somehow,i felt that she was diff. frm other girls. Firstly, shes tallllll! Secondly shes doesnt rant and shout like some ah lians? Shes soft ,gentle and fragile. 💟 When we got back to sing,we chatted for a feelings and declared my feelings for her despite being with someone else and i broke up for her.she was also considerate and we didnt stead upon breakup.we went tgt to sentosa on the 22nd of march last yr and we stead thr.Tht was the beginning of our love story.our first mth was damn sweet,i swear.I sent her home aft sch or lunch/CCA,we took neos,we went out. :) but gd times dun last...aft our first mth everything went apart and i knew miyuki during council camp.i stead with ...

I rmb the day where we joined outram as one class,i expected to graduate as a Perfect class.pll joined into my life in the process of 2 years.3rd yr in outram,things changed.over ELISSA,i lost MAEGAN.beoz Of MIYUKI,I lost Mel. -heartbroken-.becoz of my playboy attitude,I also lost LIMIN...haix...at least i still got ppl like Andro,YL,aaron,guru and more.These besties nvr left me,may have liked some of them,but they know me more than other ppl do. Wanna be added to my besties list?Know me and my blog btr first!!! ^^ mel,still not sure if u are gonna see all this or not,but i love u -blur-

Damn tired today...Stood in the sun for 2 hrs!?Then went ard in my full u...met my dear 1/6 ppl!!! ^^ aftnit ended we Jing Hao and i went to chinatwn and saw Si Hua and Sharon ...chicken rice was packed,so we decided to go to Bugis Junc. For Mos Burger inst.,then went to do hw at Jing Hao's hse and went back home. :)

Heard that u are sick...get well,dun stress urself?LOL,felt like im a naggy guy!! > Kk,gws!

First week of sch passed...didnt focus on relationships at all ? Achievement? ^^ not sure for the future though~ :| shall try then...oh ya,Jing Hao told me sharon knows bout my blog!?! See and decide then...

Why!?!?why everything is going this way!!!i nvr flirt le for u ,go in class wanna talk to u in the end see u and freakin andre tgt talking?WTF!?!?Do u even rmb that thrs a freakin me?? Sovi trying to tell me karma exsists?patch patch patch,is u make it impossible de,also my freakin fault!?!?despite all this, i still wanna have u back...dun cha get it? :(