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  那天跟小妹出游的时候，无意中提到了“嫂子们”，that was when she said something that I failed to realise until the fourth one. She said this, " 哥，你不可以跟你的好朋友在一起，不然分手的时候会很尴尬！"   In English, it basically meant that I should get involved in a relationship with my best female friends.    How I wished that advice came earlier. It makes me a jerk to say all this now, because the damage has already been done, but at least, I am reflecting on the mistakes I made.    Two out of the four ended up that way. The first one was with 大嫂，or what some of my friends will know as "Beaver". It started off as a pure prank call, to joke that I had feelings for her( back in Sec 2, my brain probably wasn't functioning too well to understand thoughts and feelings yet). Then after,  to put it bluntly, I practically begged her to be my girlfriend despite her rejections ( Yes, shameless some will say.)   She eventually accepted me, but the feelings didn't last too long on my side, as I genuinely f...

  I wonder if it's just my one sided thinking, but I dont feel myself nowadays... That once determined thought of staying alone starts to crumble.. As much as I reinforce it, the recovery rate is much slower than the destruction rate.   Currently having holidays, been having a few part time jobs here and there, and spent some of those money on buying clothes for myself (I'm an avid shopper!)    Can't wait for results to be released, has been awhile since I became so worried over results..    Went back for NPCC Camp this week, had an enjoyable time with my cadets!    My "Guardpost" during camp hahaha~   I wanted to use the night during camp to write out this post, but I was probably too tired to do so, plus a few thoughts were hovering in my mind..   After camp, went to try out trampoline jumping for the first time! A pretty good workout   I would say, considering the amount of sweat produced!   Now for the usual last part,...

我，没力气走下去了。 每天面对着现实，却不敢面对它。 面对着迷惑，在现实中失去方向。 一个人过着单人世界还是最好的。