Recalling then... Part 1

To those who know me, you might recall me in sec 2 being closer to people who went to Indo with the teachers on the first satellite school program. To those people who know me better, they might know that I used to have two best friends. Yup, I used the words "used to". I still remember the days, where the three of us went from not knowing one another, to becoming so talkative to one another after a school camp in sec 1! The sec one years were good, but damn, came the sec 2 years which shattered our friendship beyond repairs...

Well sec 2, like what I mentioned above, we went for the satellite school programme, and there is where I had "developed feelings" for a person I totally unexpected. (Will explain this in details next time!) 

Back to the satellite school, I fell in love with another girl soon after though, and that was really, the best relationship I had up to now. Shame on me, to be flirty, and not "tiong xim"(dialect for being loyal to her)like what she said last time. I must admit, that I didn't cherished her good enough. That being said, obviously we broke up after 4 months, but it wasnt because of the frequent quarrels we had, but because of my soft heart.

In June 2011, I went for a camp to M'sia. The camp bought us onto a trip on the KTM train which departs from Tanjong Pagar for the last few times. That fateful camp, I still rmb lending my jacket to one of my best friend who was sitting beside me, to shield him from the cold air con~ that fateful camp, where I saw something I shouldn't see, and that fateful camp who let my kind intentions go haywire... That camp, costed me my best relationship ever, my two best friends, and alot more than what you all might think. You can never feel the agony of forcing yourself to let go of your loved one, despite her plea to salvage the relationship. The agony, of seeing her face by the door at the classroom next to my classroom every morning. Everytime I see her then, Im just rubbing more salt into her wound.

Fortunately, I was able to salvage my friendship with that girl I used to love alot. And that's what the main objective of this blog is all about back then when I created it :), to write my life out. If it ever gets published as a biography someday, all the more people will know about my life as a wreckless teenager.

To the two best friends I used to have, I only have one word for you guys, Sorry. I know you guys have tried then to help me, but I was blinded by other feelings that caused the wreckin of our friendship. I dun expect much, but to wish you guys the best of luck in your future. :)

-zibinx-