Ryan 子彬's Blog!!! ^^

Firstly, let me just do a shoutout to fish!! Happy advanced birthday ~~ please grow up hahahah, nah just joking, I still depend on you to crack jokes for me!! Thank you so much for being there on the train when I needed a listening ear, as well as when we listened to music on the purple line together hahahaha! There are just too many things happening recently that I just have no idea where to start from.. Received a letter from 四嫂 that day through a mutual friend, and honestly speaking.. It doesn't make me feel any better. It just adds on to the bitterness and sadness that's slowly piling up as time goes by. It's really not that easy to just say goodbye at all. As I'm writing this post from a bus, I came across this group of foreign workers, who are painting the external walls of the flats we live in. These people might have never met in their lives before, but they are able to work together and gel well enough to call themselves "workmates". I really don'...

Hi all, has been awhile.. I'm probably writing this with a half-hearted mind, as I have already been considering whether to make this post for the past few weeks. If it wasn't for the PC lesson yesterday, most the update wouldn't have been here today. Let's just start off with something simple: When was the last time you actually went back into thinking like a child? When was the last time you fell out of love? All these seemingly "simple" questions, or so I thought, came back to haunt me after learning all those defense mechanisms your mind does to you. I went off to the restroom with heavy footsteps, as bits and pieces of history came together in my mjnd to unfold all those bad and evil things I have done. All those hatred, love and jealousy, the days weeping away alone and the days raging off the meter, everything just overwhelmed  me. But, I didn't show it. Took the same heavy steps back to class, and entered being my "usual" self. Denial, re...