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Hi all, sorry to keep you all waiting! I actually had much to comment on over the past few weeks with events I saw, but I was pretty much tired to blog because I was really, really tired from so many activities like camp, training for 2.4 and so on. Do give me time to slowly update it again as I also need time to sort my thoughts out as well! (Yes, alot of mindsets changed, stay tuned!) Ryan zibin 28 October 2016

Hello! This post would have came much earlier if I was not too worried of my grades for exams hahaha.. But I did it! I PASSED A MATHS WOOHOO~  I never expected a C+ grade (which translates to the range of 65-69 points out of 100) because I really thought I was going to re-module it. The paper was so tough but I tried my best to fill up all the questions and left no blanks. Results aside, I actually had so many things to update, but with the passing of time I actually forgotten some things I wanted to type. Oh well, let's just take it one step at a time, shall we? Firstly, Internship. I signed up for an interview session with an organisation (let's just name it as H) which was looking for interns doing HRIS, basically a computerised system of Human Resource Functions. Long story cut shout, I did not make the cut. However, what one of the interviewers remarked during the interview did gave me a new insight into my future. He said " You should be training and developm...

Hello guys, I am so sorry for the absence (if anyone is actually waiting for a post!) Was busy with Final Year Project and preparation of Examinations.  At least for now, FYP is done! Wow, that project alone took away most of my nights compiling slides and report and those meetings to correct my presentation skills. So tired of it but still hanged onto it!  Now moving into the main point of this post! I recently celebrated (or probably meant quietly passed) my 19th Birthday this week. Thank you for those who sent your well wishes! I was awaiting in anticipation for something to happen, but it didn't in the end. Oh well, the day passes by like any other day other! Just today, I accompanied a family member to a clinic. At the clinic, we were awaiting our time to consult the doctor when a father and daughter duo. I swear the father was probably too uptight or he was strict with his daughter who seemed like she is in primary school only. The father was scolding hi...

Wew, two presentations down in a week! So glad that its all over for those, since the guys really placed in a lot of effort to make it a funny skit presentation. For both modules, as only our group only consists of guys, we went a little extreme and crossdress... Of course the effect and laughter was there, but that isn't the main point hahaha After one of the presentations, the lecturer mentioned that sometimes, we as humans tend to overlook some features or actions we are ever so used to doing or mentioning. Why that statement? Well its because.. I impersonated her HAHAHAHA. But that comment didn't kicked in until I felt the full force of it today. You see, I never knew how people thought of me, because no one has ever came up to me, saying "oh you are too close for comfort", "you are freaking me out" or sorts. Not even in the young amd reckless days back in Secondary School. It is pretty sad to see someone saying that about me, but I guessed I deserve...

I have been drafting articles more frequently recently because I don't have a place to vent out all these frustration I had, both personal and school-wise. Well, if you happen to come across this and am thinking, "Hey, why have not you thought about me!" It's most probably because I didn't want to trouble any of you who passes by here. As most of you who have known me, you should know that I am the type of person who is extremely unwilling to make people worry for me.  On to the main topic, I was intrigued to write this article after realising how a day of events passes by in a flash. Nowadays, the emphasis is on rushing, rushing to get work done, rushing for the train, bus class, whatever it is. We have learnt to do things faster and to make things more efficient, even I myself am awed by my personal performance. I always have friends and my brothers who complained that I walk too fast to the extent that my leg barely touches the group before the other leg rises...

Somehow, thoughts and ideas only flow for me mostly when it's late into the night, and all that is accompanying me is nothing but silence. (Save for a few occasional snores) I have always thought I have had it all, and that nothing could be worse than what I had experienced before. Gruelling punishments, spiteful scoldings and heartbreaking quarrels, been there done that. However, one thing stays on, and that is on maintaining a stand between work and personal relationships. As friends, you joke around, you play around, it's alright, it's perfectly fine. But, when it comes to doing work, I normally expect high performance and quality work. There is a reason why we are given that amount of time to do work, I do not get the reason why some drag to the last moment to get things done. Is it me who is aiming too high? Or is it they who are not pushing hard enough? All that I know is, I'm tired. I have never felt as tired as this can get. "Just a few months more, you can...

For some of my loyal readers (if there's any hahahaha) here, you would have noticed the changes in blog links and names, I will touch on the part of names that I used to sign off with from then till now. T-Ryan zibinx Ryan zibin I might have touched on "T-ryan" before, where it sounds like a dinosaur name somehow. It was one of my earlier crushes I would say, and the name was coined by a mutual friend of ours, it lasted for a year or two in Lower Secondary before it evolved into the next name. For T, she is now overseas studying, happily attached. I wish the couple best of luck. zibinx was one of the longest sign off names that I have used, spanning over 4 to 5 years. It started off after I decided to chase someone I had wrongfully letten go of. There was a struggle because I am sure she had lost trust in me back then. Thenafter, someone was promoted to her class from the Normal Stream. They became close and somehow we started drifting apart again. We remain frie...