Life(Part 2)

So, carrying on from the last post!

Our happy days were short though, just after a month of being together, we were bickering almost every single day. Seeing each other in school was like, seeing a stranger. We walk pass one another like we didn't know one another. Days and months went by, and nothing improved. Soon, jealousy and anger took over, and it all went downhill.

So that year, I went to the first ever overseas Council camp, with a heavy heart. Back then, I still had Darren and Aqeel. So I remember myself sitting beside Darren on the train, and I was Sitting in the outside row. We were on the way to tekam, and that's where I saw the girl I regretted being the most with in my life. She was a new councillor, but same level as me. On that night, it was her first few days (for those who take bio, you should understand~) and I remember clearly that there was a blood stain on her PE shirt. The clueless me then, just thought that she wasn't feeling well and thus I just treated her like how I treated the others, just that I kept on reminding her to drink up so that she will recover. Little did I expect that that kindness has been misunderstood as a form of confession for love then. The night after we return, she messaged me and confessed. That night, I really had no idea whether to reject or accept, but I know that in my heart, I only have Mel. And this blog was created because of her back then. But boy, she cut herself. I have no choice but to let go of Mel. She did ask once more of we can start over again, but I let that chance slip. That was sure one of the worse decisions I have ever made. The next month or so was spent together with the girl I just knew, but I do treat her the same way. Neoprints, I even gave my first kiss to her ( REGRETTED IT ). Then one fine day, she just said she wanted to break up. Fine, I just let it go. We were not meant to be in the first place. After that, I realised that I havnt lost all feelings for Mel. I want her back. I know I hurt her a lot, but I just want her back so that I can make it up to her. But it was just impossible. The pain of breaking up was very unbearable. I also made up for it by doing badly in the most important year in Secondary School life. Well, only can move up to sec 3 and start my life over again. That's when I get to know Jonathan. :)

He was the one, who created endless laughter for me in my sec 3 year, chatting with him was never ending interesting. The whole year was also spent making new friends, which meant that my results were not as good as expected again. 😂

EOY 2012, the school held an open house for Primary School Kids to look around Outram's premises. I remember then that I found out that two of my Juniors were dating beforehand. Well, that made me talk to the female junior to see if she wants to get back with him, but as I continued to talk further with her, I realised that I actually care for her more than anyone else then. The feeling, was also different from how I treated the rest. So I just kept on whatsapping her. My CCA went to Malaysia for a leisure trip in Dec that year, and I got a chance to talk to her more. I also paid more attention to her during the trip. When we returned from the trip, It took me a few days to muster up my courage to finally pop the question to her. It took her two days, but she finally agreed to my proposal. Gosh, you did not know how happy I was when she accepted it! But I made her keep our relationship secretive because I did not want anyone to know about it. However, my wish was naive. We went for council outing and it was immediately spotted by one of her best friends. So it did not take long into the year of 2013 that everyone knew about us already. Well, that didn't stop us from continuing on. We were serious about one another, but after a few months, I thought about my studies. It is my last year in Outram. It's time for me to pull up my socks and buck up. But then, I did not know how to put a stop to our relationship, so O just lied to her. This, obviously didn't end as well as I expected...

But well, here I am now, scored 12 for Os, and about to go to poly soon. Time to put history behind, and start over again.

So there you have it: I only have 4 girlfriends. No more, no less.

So to those who think I'm a flirter, think again. :)

Next time, I will share what qualities I look out for in girls!! So stay tuned!!