Heading back to that all-ever sensitive topic...
Hi all,
doubt that I will continue with the misinterpretation topic for now, reason being as stated in the previous post, I don't wish to hurt that person further. There are 2 more stories on that topic actually, but nah, if you want to know about it, contact me.
Now, back to this post! I tend to think that love will be like what happens in those SG Dramas when I was young. I remember when I was in Primary 2, I actually asked my mom this on the way home, "Mummy, can I marry this girl called C?"
It doesn't take much knowledge to guess what the response is hahaha~ Back then, zero knowledge of love. Years in Primary School went by, few more headless crushes and there I was, graduated and in OSS. OSS was a brand new environment for me. I knew no one ( other than my bro ;o ), and that was exactly what I wanted, because I want a brand new start. New friends were made, but the maturity in mindsets, or should I say childishness bought me to the thought of finding a girlfriend again. I probably failed miserably in that year 2010, sometimes ending up in tears under my blanket. ( Yes, more emotional back in those days..)
Then the story after that can be found in the earlier posts, not gonna repeat it time and over again. I feel like I have taken it for granted back then. up till Secondary 2, the purpose of finding a girlfriend was probably to... just have one. I didn't know how it felt to have a girlfriend, but happiness can't be forced out right?
It was until I met her that I realised, she was the one. We might have been through more turbulent times than happy moments, but the happy moments we spent were honestly some of the most innocent moments of my life. Up till this day, I will just laughed at the way I planned for our proposal back then, from getting the gift to actually getting to hold her hand, I was silly enough to ask her if we are together after we held our hands!
Even with all this, I TOOK IT FOR GRANTED AGAIN. This will undoubtedly be one of my biggest regrets. Since that, I did ask for her hand again after settling whatever problems I had (probably), was no longer her ideal type. It did sting till this day, but I respect her decisions. Will I ever ask for her hand again? All I would say is, let nature take its flow. What's rushed will never come out good. Now I am living life well as a single person, what if I take it for granted again? I have no idea, this tangled bunch of feelings will just hang on...
-zibinx-
07 April 2015
doubt that I will continue with the misinterpretation topic for now, reason being as stated in the previous post, I don't wish to hurt that person further. There are 2 more stories on that topic actually, but nah, if you want to know about it, contact me.
Now, back to this post! I tend to think that love will be like what happens in those SG Dramas when I was young. I remember when I was in Primary 2, I actually asked my mom this on the way home, "Mummy, can I marry this girl called C?"
It doesn't take much knowledge to guess what the response is hahaha~ Back then, zero knowledge of love. Years in Primary School went by, few more headless crushes and there I was, graduated and in OSS. OSS was a brand new environment for me. I knew no one ( other than my bro ;o ), and that was exactly what I wanted, because I want a brand new start. New friends were made, but the maturity in mindsets, or should I say childishness bought me to the thought of finding a girlfriend again. I probably failed miserably in that year 2010, sometimes ending up in tears under my blanket. ( Yes, more emotional back in those days..)
Then the story after that can be found in the earlier posts, not gonna repeat it time and over again. I feel like I have taken it for granted back then. up till Secondary 2, the purpose of finding a girlfriend was probably to... just have one. I didn't know how it felt to have a girlfriend, but happiness can't be forced out right?
It was until I met her that I realised, she was the one. We might have been through more turbulent times than happy moments, but the happy moments we spent were honestly some of the most innocent moments of my life. Up till this day, I will just laughed at the way I planned for our proposal back then, from getting the gift to actually getting to hold her hand, I was silly enough to ask her if we are together after we held our hands!
Even with all this, I TOOK IT FOR GRANTED AGAIN. This will undoubtedly be one of my biggest regrets. Since that, I did ask for her hand again after settling whatever problems I had (probably), was no longer her ideal type. It did sting till this day, but I respect her decisions. Will I ever ask for her hand again? All I would say is, let nature take its flow. What's rushed will never come out good. Now I am living life well as a single person, what if I take it for granted again? I have no idea, this tangled bunch of feelings will just hang on...
-zibinx-
07 April 2015
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