All over again

  Today was quite a tiring day for me, having spent almost the whole day outdoors. School in the morning till afternoon, and dinner with the birthday boy! I certainly feel honored to be invited to this dinner as it really means alot to me.
  Moving on, this whole week has been a really tiring week for me, mentally tiring. It all comes to the time of the year where people are slotted into groups for projects with whines and rejections everywhere. Oh well. At least it's settled for now.. I hope.
  The struggle is back. At one point of time, I thought everything went downhill and we had lost touch of one another, but now after what we had recently been through, I really have no idea what I am doing with my life now. I did mention that I should embrace the single life, so am I seeing the wrong things in life? It really wasn't easy because that personal commitment set is still etched in my mind. Have I really found the correct one? Or it is all gonna just burn up in flames? I kept telling myself time will reveal the answer, but one year down, more to go and I just could not find the answer to that particular question.
  I consulted many on this issue, and many gave me the same answer, "You can choose not to try, but you will regret this decision in the future." I know that I had always wanted to pop the question, but the timing is never once properly grasped. I am really afraid of the answer due to past experiences as well. I really dont want things to go down the drain.
  I really wonder when will the time actually arrive for me to come clean, Gonna work harder for my modules!

-Ryan zibin-
31 October 2015

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