Ranting

Hello all! 
I am finally back after my previous post, finally have the time to type my thoughts down, probably because I am down with flu haha, otherwise I do not think I will have the mood to write. If some of you here recall, I tend to write my posts in the wee hours of the morning, as that is the time I will have the most "feel" to write.
Anyway, I have so many things to pen down, but let me start off with school life first, before carrying on with other things. Currently, 2 weeks of school life have almost passed, with 4 weeks more before internship! For those who are wondering, I only have 6 weeks of school this semester before I will embark on a 3 months internship. However, I still have to clear 2 modules beforehand, and these projects are already taking a toll despite my group's progress. I don't know if it's me, but I feel very tired of heading to school. I don't know if its due to the long semestral break before or the compact timetable we have now, I just feel that I want to get it over and done with. This feel is completely different from year 2 where I took a backseat in leading groups for projects, I just feel like taking a break now. But oh well, 4 weeks more!
Down with the school topic, let's move on with some thoughts I had in my mind for awhile now! 
During the holidays, other than my usual adhoc jobs, I basically spend my time rotting at home. I spent my time thinking through my relatively eventful relationships. I wasn't thinking much of the process or what I have done during that stage, but rather how it has affected me since. Recently, my secomdary school friends have been teasing me as to how I have "lost my skills" in mingling with people of the oppsite gender, as opposed to my eventful secondary school years. Well.. It's not that I don't want to mingle or that I'm attracted to people of the same gender HAHA, but rather, I want to find a stable relationship. I don't want to play around doing pick and search because I believe it doesn't benefit both parties as well. I did attempt to find a like-minded person I would say, but so far.. I failed. Apparently, I'm perceived as oppresive and stressful because I do not know how to give breaks between communicating. Oh well, at least it's a learning experience. I did what my soulmate told me and gave it another go, and subsequently I did give up. Like mentioned before, it's not easy to  find one, but it's even harder to get things to work out. You just got to keep on trying. However, I'm just going to take a break from emotions for now. After all, I'm too tired, and busy to invest in such things for now.
That will be all for now! I have alot more to say, but let's keep it for a time when I feel physically better. Meanwhile, do watch put for your health!

- ryan zibin -
1 November 2016


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