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Unusual for me to be blogging at this timing, but you know, the feel doesnt come as and when you deem! At the blink of an eye, school has already gone by it's first week.brand new modules, brand new year, but our class remains, good in my opinion. Now being in year 2, it is quite different from year 1.. just too different. Even I don't know how to put it in words. It just gets sick and tired when it comes to groupings.. Just gonna pull it through! No time for other affairs. Fortunately, there is the bunch of guys to help me out when I need somebody to talk to. She.. I don't know. zibinx 25 April 2015

Hi all,   doubt that I will continue with the misinterpretation topic for now, reason being as stated in the previous post, I don't wish to hurt that person further. There are 2 more stories on that topic actually, but nah, if you want to know about it, contact me.   Now, back to this post! I tend to think that love will be like what happens in those SG Dramas when I was young. I remember when I was in Primary 2, I actually asked my mom this on the way home, "Mummy, can I marry this girl called C?"   It doesn't take much knowledge to guess what the response is hahaha~ Back then, zero knowledge of love. Years in Primary School went by, few more headless crushes and there I was, graduated and in OSS. OSS was a brand new environment for me. I knew no one ( other than my bro ;o ), and that was exactly what I wanted, because I want a brand new start. New friends were made, but the maturity in mindsets, or should I say childishness bought me to the thought of finding a g...

  那天跟小妹出游的时候，无意中提到了“嫂子们”，that was when she said something that I failed to realise until the fourth one. She said this, " 哥，你不可以跟你的好朋友在一起，不然分手的时候会很尴尬！"   In English, it basically meant that I should get involved in a relationship with my best female friends.    How I wished that advice came earlier. It makes me a jerk to say all this now, because the damage has already been done, but at least, I am reflecting on the mistakes I made.    Two out of the four ended up that way. The first one was with 大嫂，or what some of my friends will know as "Beaver". It started off as a pure prank call, to joke that I had feelings for her( back in Sec 2, my brain probably wasn't functioning too well to understand thoughts and feelings yet). Then after,  to put it bluntly, I practically begged her to be my girlfriend despite her rejections ( Yes, shameless some will say.)   She eventually accepted me, but the feelings didn't last too long on my side, as I genuinely f...

  I wonder if it's just my one sided thinking, but I dont feel myself nowadays... That once determined thought of staying alone starts to crumble.. As much as I reinforce it, the recovery rate is much slower than the destruction rate.   Currently having holidays, been having a few part time jobs here and there, and spent some of those money on buying clothes for myself (I'm an avid shopper!)    Can't wait for results to be released, has been awhile since I became so worried over results..    Went back for NPCC Camp this week, had an enjoyable time with my cadets!    My "Guardpost" during camp hahaha~   I wanted to use the night during camp to write out this post, but I was probably too tired to do so, plus a few thoughts were hovering in my mind..   After camp, went to try out trampoline jumping for the first time! A pretty good workout   I would say, considering the amount of sweat produced!   Now for the usual last part,...

我，没力气走下去了。 每天面对着现实，却不敢面对它。 面对着迷惑，在现实中失去方向。 一个人过着单人世界还是最好的。

Im a guy who doesn't really take selfies actually. I tend to be more personal because I never really believe in the art of selfies. However, there will be times when you just wanna sort of YOLO for once behind the judgemental eyes, so here are some of those! Could be funny to some of you~ zibinx February 22 2015

Back to the time for zibinx to reflect again hahaha~ I don't know why but I just find it very relaxing at night, to discuss about the recent happenings in my life. The night sort of gave me the feeling that I have all the time I can get to slowly recall about the past.  Anyway, all presentations down!! Yayy, but 3 more papers to goo~ ;( (Somebody save me from drowning in the books of knowledge!!)  And that was probably it for school life.. For those readers who always catch up with my relationship statuses, well... Sorry to disappoint you guys again! Now's not really the right time to get into one either haha! As in, everyone has its comfort zone, and some might refuse to move out of it due to past experiences. I'm one of those. I managed to move out of the previous one, but it doesn't mean that I'm ready for a new one. I tend to see myself as a person who always makes the wrong decisions, which has always been the case, especially for major decisions. I really do n...