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After a month of being inactive, I'm backkk~~ :D Those who know will know why it took me so long to get back here, but I just find this place a really good spot to pour out my feelings to, in this world of mine.. Anyway, back to updates, all that's left is to turn up for the exams! 2 papers only, so gonna work really hard for it! GPA needs a much needed boost. Secondly, congratulations to me for my birthday!!! *insert clapping sounds* [so nice of me to "celebrate" my birthday here LOL] Thanks everyone for the well wishes, as well as the gifts by all, especially the 10 of you, you know whoo~ really appreciate it. :) But... I don't know. It's probably one sided like what Heidi said, or that I expect too much. For the 24 hours of my special day, I was waiting for that one message from her.  Waking up came.. SIP came.. Going home came.. Cutting of cake came.. Nap time came.. No well wish from her. None. I wouldn't say it's her fault at all, but it's ju...

Hi all, back here after a long while.. was still running a fever earlier in the day hahaha, but the time I felt ready to write has arrived again.   All these weeks in school, I received the results for my papers, and honestly, I really felt unjustified at first for failing that paper. However, I told myself to move on, that I managed to write down the fundamentals and that's all it matters.   Was back in school on Friday for Speech day, and honestly I felt worried. I thought that I will see her again, but for some reason she wasn't there. Whether its a sigh of relief or disappointment, it doesn't matter. What matters is that both of us don't have to go through the sorrows again..   Don't really have much to write as I go on.. but I'm getting tired of rumours. Not that I know those people as well, and leave such a reputation. Once or twice is fine, just not continuous reminders. 我真的很累。不想去对付那些传言了。就随它吧。 -zibinx- 12th July 2015

  First week of holidays down, technically one week left to go, since I'm down for camp on the third week! Gosh, I really don't know how to describe this week other than it being eventful. There are just too many thoughts to process through and I still have schoolwork to do (Yes, your holidays are sometimes spent on schoolwork.. :(   I was feeling quite churned up within for the first few days of holiday, but we'll leave the details for later. All those emotions and decisions were all washed out when I heard that.... Wait for it... THE CORRS ARE REUNITING!! WOOHOO!!! OMG YOU DON'T KNOW HOW LONG I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS TO HAPPEN!  They have always been a motivational pillar for me since primary school, where I was exposed to their 2001 hit single "Breathless". Their songs never fail to sort of guide me through highs and lows of my life, especially in Sec 2 with those common sensical, yet simple and meaningful lyrics. Here is part of the lyrics from breathl...

Firstly, let me just do a shoutout to fish!! Happy advanced birthday ~~ please grow up hahahah, nah just joking, I still depend on you to crack jokes for me!! Thank you so much for being there on the train when I needed a listening ear, as well as when we listened to music on the purple line together hahahaha! There are just too many things happening recently that I just have no idea where to start from.. Received a letter from 四嫂 that day through a mutual friend, and honestly speaking.. It doesn't make me feel any better. It just adds on to the bitterness and sadness that's slowly piling up as time goes by. It's really not that easy to just say goodbye at all. As I'm writing this post from a bus, I came across this group of foreign workers, who are painting the external walls of the flats we live in. These people might have never met in their lives before, but they are able to work together and gel well enough to call themselves "workmates". I really don'...

Hi all, has been awhile.. I'm probably writing this with a half-hearted mind, as I have already been considering whether to make this post for the past few weeks. If it wasn't for the PC lesson yesterday, most the update wouldn't have been here today. Let's just start off with something simple: When was the last time you actually went back into thinking like a child? When was the last time you fell out of love? All these seemingly "simple" questions, or so I thought, came back to haunt me after learning all those defense mechanisms your mind does to you. I went off to the restroom with heavy footsteps, as bits and pieces of history came together in my mjnd to unfold all those bad and evil things I have done. All those hatred, love and jealousy, the days weeping away alone and the days raging off the meter, everything just overwhelmed  me. But, I didn't show it. Took the same heavy steps back to class, and entered being my "usual" self. Denial, re...

Unusual for me to be blogging at this timing, but you know, the feel doesnt come as and when you deem! At the blink of an eye, school has already gone by it's first week.brand new modules, brand new year, but our class remains, good in my opinion. Now being in year 2, it is quite different from year 1.. just too different. Even I don't know how to put it in words. It just gets sick and tired when it comes to groupings.. Just gonna pull it through! No time for other affairs. Fortunately, there is the bunch of guys to help me out when I need somebody to talk to. She.. I don't know. zibinx 25 April 2015

Hi all,   doubt that I will continue with the misinterpretation topic for now, reason being as stated in the previous post, I don't wish to hurt that person further. There are 2 more stories on that topic actually, but nah, if you want to know about it, contact me.   Now, back to this post! I tend to think that love will be like what happens in those SG Dramas when I was young. I remember when I was in Primary 2, I actually asked my mom this on the way home, "Mummy, can I marry this girl called C?"   It doesn't take much knowledge to guess what the response is hahaha~ Back then, zero knowledge of love. Years in Primary School went by, few more headless crushes and there I was, graduated and in OSS. OSS was a brand new environment for me. I knew no one ( other than my bro ;o ), and that was exactly what I wanted, because I want a brand new start. New friends were made, but the maturity in mindsets, or should I say childishness bought me to the thought of finding a g...