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大家好，I finally found time to write again after a long while (probably found the courage to write again), after all those grumbles haha!  Let me share what I had written a few years back: As the date shows, it was written when I first got my Iphone 4S. Oh boy, 2011 was a very bad year for me. Made it through, not gonna turn back on the bad things.  As to who's the "her" in the note, let's just say those who know will know, those who don't know, shall continue to be kept unknown haha!  Now that I look back on my past, I realised that I really, really dont deserve anyone at all, especially 二嫂... All those things I did which I deemed as to 报复and惹她生气, so childish come to think of it now.. Three years down, we still meet occasionally, and I won't deny the end of her, but I'm sure the last thing she needs, or I need now is another chance of hurting one another. Let's end this with an extremely outdated photo! Happy holidays readers! ^^ Zibinx 26th December 201...

随着时间一天一天地过，感情也跟着一天一天地增加。但是，随着增加，也带来了更多的忧伤。怎么说呢？心里的心事，无法再找到一个知己来谈，而知己也在我的面前慢慢属于别人的。堆起来的心事放在心里，真的好难受。我还是佩服自己，能在每个人面前表现出快乐的我。难道这就是结局吗？ zibinx 7th December 2014

Everything, has it's ups and downs. Not everything or everyone is meant to be close to you. Once it's gone, there it goes. Dont bother asking, dont bother looking back. Just keep on moving. 没有找到，只代表人生道路还很漫长，不需要急着定下心，而从中再做出错误的选择. -zibinx- 20th November 2014

  Sometimes, what we see might not be what it is in reality. What we need to do is to go in depth and find out the truth. The truth might not always be soothing or comforting, but that's how it is. Reality is cruel.    It all leads me to believe that the only thing I can trust is music. Whenever I feel down and out, I know that The Corrs will always be there for me with their songs, which is pretty much the reason why I bought all their albums on itunes haha!    Their songs like "runaway", "breathless", "radio" and especially "goodbye" are my favourite, as they really tend to relate to what I experienced over the years.    So Looking forward to Gen Ed tomorrow, wonder what will happen when I bring my item out! Goodnight folks!  zibinx 6 Nov 2014

Just went for the diploma "Movie Night" just now in school~ I gotta say, the movie was great! My bunch of jokers decided to watch Escape Plan instead of The Prestige and it wasn't a bad choice at all. The jokers with Bon~ ( Will talk about him another time!) Moving on, as fast as it seems, it's already week 2 into the 2nd semester! Time flies very quickly, especially with all the public holidays stacking up. To me, I have a love-hate feeling for holidays. On one hand, I can finally take a break from all the stressful life, and all the projects and modules. On the other hand, holidays make some friendships Challenging to handle, and that's whay that has happened to me. I dont know why, but she seems to be on the phone all the while ever since school restarted. Does she have a suitor? Possible, but Im not gonna probe any further into it! ( The lesser I know, the less I have to worry about). Somehow, I just feel that Im very inferior. everyone is higher in ranks than...

  Was compiling my photos for a album and slideshow ( Look at the new slideshow at the top right corner of the right column!! ) when I spent the time looking through all the photos to compile that I realised the choices I made in life that shaped who I am today. From OS2 to Council Camp to CCA Retreat, all these events at some part of my life allowed me to make new friends, but also cost me some friendships that were deemed important to me.   All of these might be over, but the decisions I made have an everlasting impact. all these memories start to flow back when I looked through those photos, those quarrels, those silly times, those times spent with my squad mates under the sun in pumping position, all these are still etched in my mind as though it all happened yesterday.   As you look through the photos, you will see the people, who I truly regard as my friends, juniors, seniors etc. All these people played a part in the me you see standing before you guys today. ...

  Hi all~   Yup, I am back to write again! I actually thought about writing after looking through a friend's blog..   Alright, so basically, it's the holidays now and I had only worked for like.. 2 days!?!  T-T Sean just abandoned me and went for an admin job with only one vacant slot. Haha, can't blame him either!   So some of you must be guessing, what have I been doing throughout my holidays? Well, alot I will say! First of all, I went to make myself listen to way more Mandrain songs! My knowledge of them was so little that I had to print out lyrics to even memorise them! >< Secondly, I went out with the "souls of drunkards" to spend time with our Dear Master "one inch" who specially flew back during his school break. I do have to say that at least we are still quite close, despite a few differences in thoughts from time to time (inserts laugh cry emoji)   I also went to Pulau Ubin again, bringing along someone who was there for the first t...

  Hi all~ Finally decided to resume my blogging again after a short break! :D   It has been quite an eventful week so far! Mon was Hari Raya, and on Tues we came to school in Traditional Malay Costumes (or strictly speaking, we changed in school hahaha~)           Yup, first photo for the blog!!     On that day, we were really the centre of attention with those outfits, but it was really thrilling to be different from the rest~   Then came Wednesday which was poly 60! Our class was probably one of the only few teams to have a team consisting of only members from the same class~                    Us before the start...    ... And us at the end, 60 laps later! ^^   It was really amazing to see how bonded our class was to complete this despite the rain and the limited amount of trainings we have~ it really is an achievement. I mean, 60 laps as a team is no easy feat righ...

As of now, I'm currently in a lesson, but that doesn't stop me from blogging hahaha~ XD Finally back to school, after nearly 3 weeks of "holidays"... For my holidays, nope, not travelling or shopping or whatsoever, but went for CIBTC~~ Boy I gonna admit, it was fun, but felt like hell at the same time as well~ Eating instant noodles for 3 straight days was never a fun thing to do unless you have a wish to keep your head bald forever! 4 Saturdays, 1 5D4N residential course and 1 4D3N adventure training camp. New friendships were forged and new skills were learnt. At times, we will sort of "blame" the instructors for the hard training we received, but in the end, new skills were learnt, new levels of knowledge were achieved. My squad persevered through to achieve our ultimate squad aim of zero trainees quitting course. It was a very proud moment when we donned our No 1s, but there was also that slight tint of sadness when we knew all has came to an end. No...

It seems to me that early mornings are the only time I am sober, and free enough to blog hahaha! (Insert laugh cry emoji) Well, let's not get bothered too much about the blog timing! Shall split the sections up: Cadet Inspector Basic Training Course (CIBTC) Im currently about one-third the way through CIBTC lo!! Yayyy Initially, the thought of heading back to be lectured by seniors again frightens me as I have not been lectured on for like, 3 years already? It's definitely a refreshing moment for me as all those skills I learnt back in my unit are being refined in CIBTC. New skills were also being learnt, which my unit will benefit the most from when I bring those skills back. It all seems so surreal, that I had already survived 3 modular courses and Im about to get my cadet inspector rank. I wonder, if Im going to head down the NPCC path the whole way... (Better not tho! :p) Sec Sch: Moving on, just got a call from Mr Abdul yesterday, and I'm getting a price for speech day...

大家好！Zibinx 我又回来了！既然睡不着，就来写博客吧！:-D As fast as it may seem, it's already the fourth week of poly life already!! I'm already getting used to it, and so am I getting closer to my classmates. I do have to admit that they are a very interesting bunch of people! :p Just on Monday, I betted with two classmates on whether they will wear wear their uniform to poly. And as it turns out, one of them actually did!! 😂 CCA-wise, joined SP Marathoners ( now all of my readers will know where I study haha!!) and Sign Language Club (SLC). Both CCAs only started this week, so nothing to comment for now yet hahaha~ but SLC welcome party was awesome!!! Woohoo!! Didn't knew that I can actually have fun while learning sign language till today hahaha... Some loyal readers might notice that I never really emphasise on my love life and relationships anymore right? ;-) Sad to say, but that topic might be off for a little while, because... it's simply too early to talk about it! How can I just...

Update: As of 0852 hr, the lecturer is STILL MIA for my General Education lesson~ That's why I can have the time to update yayy~ So, hi all once again! I have since progressed into poly! And, I found a new group of extremely fun coursemates in my class~ How do I explain it... At first, everyone was hesitant to even communicate with one another, thinking as though everyone to them is a giant creature waiting to eat them. However, all it takes are 3 days of bonding and walla, everyone is bonding together as a whole!! :D I'm so sorry that Im not posting any pics of them for now as I'm just plain lazy to even connect my iphone to my lappy!! I will find a chance to upload it someday! :) Oh boy, there's one in my class who sounds like her..... Anyway, it's not her, and I had already moved on, so nothing much bothers me anymore. New environment, new life, new friends. Gonna start over again! Jyjys! Gonna have so much fun with them for sure in the next 3 years. A new c...

别让别人控制你的人生，别让它们得逞。恨我的人，谢谢你！你帮我的人生变得更加精彩。😄

Music therapy comes to the rescue!! Since yesterday, I have been placing my mind on music, just hoping to get everything out of my mind. Listen to The Corrs, and this morning, I have the sudden urge, to listen to Mandopop after quite awhile hahaha! Here are a few songs that I recommend! ( might be old and dull to some, but it's the best I can recommend!! ><) 1) Tank- 专属天使 2）杨培安-我相信 3）SHE-五月天  The second one might be a little hard to listen when you are feeling very down.. But that song is a very motivational song :) So yeah, gotten ove it ler! Life goes on, not stop when you have challenges like this.  -zibinx :)- 29/3/2014

Im tired of her nonsense. Just let her do what she deems is fit. And thank you to myself for carrying out the debrief even when you are ASKED to do the debrief (yes, I was asked to do the debrief. I DID NOT requested to do the debrief.) You are still the same. Nothing gets into that brain of yours when you are mad. Even when you cool down, you also refuse to admit it. Just leave it as it is then, not as though I didn't give you your rights. Argh.

Hi viewers! Im back again hahaha~ This time, just wanna share with you guys more of myself!!  So for now, my clique keeps on saying that I will find a girlfriend in Poly LOL. For sure I know that won't happen, as after all, I'm not ready for a new relationship in the near future. Some of you might think that Im lying or whatsoever, I can however say that you are wrong. Totally wrong. I am really not prepared for the next relationship yet. Just look at it! It took me two and a half years to let go of her. Not easy when feelings and other factors are present. Now Im a free guy, and I have let go of everything ler, but I just dont want to start a new one now. It doesnt mean I will die without a girlfriend, neither does it mean that i did the right thing by breaking up with her. All I can say is, studies come first, regardless of relationships being a burden or not.  -zibinx- 17/3/2014

  Whenever I feel down, or whenever I get pointed at for no apparent reason, I always turned to my phone for help. Some of my friends will notice, I actually spent money to buy all the albums of a band, named The Corrs. The Corrs are an Irish band which comprises of Andrea, Caroline, Sharon and Jim Corr. They are currently on Hiatus as they have their respective careers and personal lives to attend to.   Now, how did I get to know of their existence? I missed the days of their glory back in the 1990s and early 2000s, but I am glad that I know them through my mother hahaha! I remember I was Primary 3 then, back then I still did not own a mobile phone. Therefore, after school in the afternoon, I took my mom's phone to play with the games then. One fine day, I went to her music album and the song "Breathless" was the first song I heard. That particular song echoed in my mind till now, because of the lyrics. The upbeat rhythm just makes me listen to it again and again. Let ...

You think that Im wrong. Fine I accept it. You think that Im not up for the job. Fine I accept it. I say that you shouldn't suffer, you didn't accept it. I say that you should continue to work hard, you didn't accept it. Then why, must you say all those behind me? I rather, you do it in my face, than to go around backstabbing like this. You might think it helps to please you, but it hurts badly. Please, shoot directly. Do not beat around the bushes. Thank you. -RYAN- 07/03/14

I hope that I have not been keeping you readers too long for my blog to be updated! Hahaha, well, I will try my best to update more often!  All these while, I have my own set of "guidelines" I should say, to find the girl I truly have feelings for. Let me list a few: 1)I do not go for girls after figures only ( Don't think of me as a person who goes after girls with nice figures, coz I'm never attracted by them. Personality makes more sense to me as I want to have someone who can manage the trivial things in life rather than spend money all day long on manicures and spas!! ><) 2) I look for people who can be my soul mates ( Yup, they understand what Im thinking about and what I have gone through in my life) 3) I only choose to give it a shot only if I know that girl well enough ( Learnt it from past experiences.) When these 3 criterias come together, I believe that I will be able to find a girl who is able to read our minds alike, and also help me out when I nee...

So, carrying on from the last post! Our happy days were short though, just after a month of being together, we were bickering almost every single day. Seeing each other in school was like, seeing a stranger. We walk pass one another like we didn't know one another. Days and months went by, and nothing improved. Soon, jealousy and anger took over, and it all went downhill. So that year, I went to the first ever overseas Council camp, with a heavy heart. Back then, I still had Darren and Aqeel. So I remember myself sitting beside Darren on the train, and I was Sitting in the outside row. We were on the way to tekam, and that's where I saw the girl I regretted being the most with in my life. She was a new councillor, but same level as me. On that night, it was her first few days (for those who take bio, you should understand~) and I remember clearly that there was a blood stain on her PE shirt. The clueless me then, just thought that she wasn't feeling well and thus I just tre...

Hello people~ has been a long time since I wrote what I assumed as a proper post. Now that I have the time to do it, its finally time for me to come clean with one and ONLY ONE version of my life in Secondary school.  One question everyone will ask: How many girlfriends did you have? This question will be answered eventually by me at the bottom half of this post. :) Now to start off with the boring part! I came to Outram Sec then, wasn't because that my brother was in that school before me, but because I wanted to start afresh in a school which no one knows me. I do not like to be in a school whereby I have loads of primary school friends who bring up things that aren't worth to bring up. I want a new beginning, that's why I choosed a school far from my primary school. Then it beginned on the 23rd of Dec 2009( If i recall correctly!) that I reported to school. Gosh, Dad brought me to the school so early that even the school hall wasn't prepared for the Sec 1 registratio...

Hello people! Time for some updates again as Im so bored without school!!! So apparently, I made it into SP HR management with Psychology yayy~ 👍 my choice course! Time to adapt into a new environment to just forget about the past.. To be honest, even if i held on, the future is uncertain for us. Now, only Poly, and CCA remains in my mind, the rest shall wait~ :) To those attatched who are reading this, I wish you a very happy Valentine's Day. Last long with your other halves!! XD

Like seriously, I really have enough of your nonsense. When I dont blow up in front of you, it means that i still have that sense of respect for you. If you want to push the envelope and try your luck further, I wouldnt gurantee if I can still endure such behaviour from you. I dun mind if you ignore me, slam the door in my face, DONT VENT IT ON OTHER PEOPLE. I seldomly lose my temper like this, try me. I hate losing my temper, because that tells me that you dun even deserve the chance to be respected by me. Respect is gained, not by demand. If you have any grudges, come and aim it at me. Im always ready to settle that score. I HATE IT, HATE IT WHEN INNOCENT PEOPLE ARE INVOLVED . Just try me.