Midnight thoughts

I guess the long night is the only way I can sort of calm myself down to "pen" my thoughts out. Let's start off with this pic from my now abandoned first blog:


Let's go through the list to see if they did come true!
1) I guess I managed to make those important to me happy!
2) I don't know if this came true, too many choices in life man~ 
3) Not anymore LOL! 
4) This was back then when I did quite badly for streaming in Sec 2.. It didn't come true because I still did badly in Sec 3 hahaha~
5) I dont think this came true as well. I'm probably one of the most guilty conscious person around.
6) This sort of came true, I guess!
7) Came true
8) Both fell through, wasn't like how I am now in the past.
9) I guess I scored pretty decently!
10) Boy, an I glad that this didn't come true haha, if not I wouldnt get yo meet the person I'm seeing now.
Thank god I was in this class. Those who know me well enough will know that I literally grumble at the most minor of things (never bf material haha), but this class is really different from the other classes in my diploma batch. We... Do crazy things together, tutorials and lectures were never void of fun and laughter, as well as jokes out of nowhere~ (Guys, sorry for being a lame joker during school!) I couldn't imagine if I'm in any of the other classes. I guess what some people have been saying is right. You dont have to make many friends in poly, some BFFs, and the rest can be hi-bye friends.
100 aims, only 10 done back then, and not all achieved. Shows how aimless of a person I can be right? Well, at least, the people around me are happy, that's all that matters. 
I personally don't mind if I'm unhappy, if the people around me are happy, you will definitely see me with a smile, just because I believe that my woes are never  meant to make anyone upset other than myself.
But sometimes, I question whether I am too comfortable with myself that I took some things for granted. Sometimes, I just need a knock on the head, to tell me, "Hey Ryan, wtf you thinking! You shouldn't be doing things like this." Gonna improve on myself, too many areas for improvement.
Relationship wise, commitment stays on. I just have no time and interest for it at this moment of time, although what one of my poly friends said is true (you know who you are ;)): "It doesn't mean you can't score a goal even when there is a goalie blocking your ball" Thanks mate!

人生的第一个 formal presentation also down! How nerve-wrecking it was when I presented, a few screw-ups here and there for the team, but we endured through it!


Ohh, and it's your birthday today Qian Er! Happy birthday once again even though its an hour plus past your birthday hahaha~ May your dreams be realised in the year for you! Only have this pic way back from DHRMP D&D haha~



That's all for now! Probably should "pen" down some of my deeper thoughts on another occasion. 

-zibinx-
7 February 2015



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