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  First week of holidays down, technically one week left to go, since I'm down for camp on the third week! Gosh, I really don't know how to describe this week other than it being eventful. There are just too many thoughts to process through and I still have schoolwork to do (Yes, your holidays are sometimes spent on schoolwork.. :(   I was feeling quite churned up within for the first few days of holiday, but we'll leave the details for later. All those emotions and decisions were all washed out when I heard that.... Wait for it... THE CORRS ARE REUNITING!! WOOHOO!!! OMG YOU DON'T KNOW HOW LONG I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS TO HAPPEN!  They have always been a motivational pillar for me since primary school, where I was exposed to their 2001 hit single "Breathless". Their songs never fail to sort of guide me through highs and lows of my life, especially in Sec 2 with those common sensical, yet simple and meaningful lyrics. Here is part of the lyrics from breathl...

Firstly, let me just do a shoutout to fish!! Happy advanced birthday ~~ please grow up hahahah, nah just joking, I still depend on you to crack jokes for me!! Thank you so much for being there on the train when I needed a listening ear, as well as when we listened to music on the purple line together hahahaha! There are just too many things happening recently that I just have no idea where to start from.. Received a letter from 四嫂 that day through a mutual friend, and honestly speaking.. It doesn't make me feel any better. It just adds on to the bitterness and sadness that's slowly piling up as time goes by. It's really not that easy to just say goodbye at all. As I'm writing this post from a bus, I came across this group of foreign workers, who are painting the external walls of the flats we live in. These people might have never met in their lives before, but they are able to work together and gel well enough to call themselves "workmates". I really don'...

Hi all, has been awhile.. I'm probably writing this with a half-hearted mind, as I have already been considering whether to make this post for the past few weeks. If it wasn't for the PC lesson yesterday, most the update wouldn't have been here today. Let's just start off with something simple: When was the last time you actually went back into thinking like a child? When was the last time you fell out of love? All these seemingly "simple" questions, or so I thought, came back to haunt me after learning all those defense mechanisms your mind does to you. I went off to the restroom with heavy footsteps, as bits and pieces of history came together in my mjnd to unfold all those bad and evil things I have done. All those hatred, love and jealousy, the days weeping away alone and the days raging off the meter, everything just overwhelmed  me. But, I didn't show it. Took the same heavy steps back to class, and entered being my "usual" self. Denial, re...

Unusual for me to be blogging at this timing, but you know, the feel doesnt come as and when you deem! At the blink of an eye, school has already gone by it's first week.brand new modules, brand new year, but our class remains, good in my opinion. Now being in year 2, it is quite different from year 1.. just too different. Even I don't know how to put it in words. It just gets sick and tired when it comes to groupings.. Just gonna pull it through! No time for other affairs. Fortunately, there is the bunch of guys to help me out when I need somebody to talk to. She.. I don't know. zibinx 25 April 2015

Hi all,   doubt that I will continue with the misinterpretation topic for now, reason being as stated in the previous post, I don't wish to hurt that person further. There are 2 more stories on that topic actually, but nah, if you want to know about it, contact me.   Now, back to this post! I tend to think that love will be like what happens in those SG Dramas when I was young. I remember when I was in Primary 2, I actually asked my mom this on the way home, "Mummy, can I marry this girl called C?"   It doesn't take much knowledge to guess what the response is hahaha~ Back then, zero knowledge of love. Years in Primary School went by, few more headless crushes and there I was, graduated and in OSS. OSS was a brand new environment for me. I knew no one ( other than my bro ;o ), and that was exactly what I wanted, because I want a brand new start. New friends were made, but the maturity in mindsets, or should I say childishness bought me to the thought of finding a g...

  那天跟小妹出游的时候，无意中提到了“嫂子们”，that was when she said something that I failed to realise until the fourth one. She said this, " 哥，你不可以跟你的好朋友在一起，不然分手的时候会很尴尬！"   In English, it basically meant that I should get involved in a relationship with my best female friends.    How I wished that advice came earlier. It makes me a jerk to say all this now, because the damage has already been done, but at least, I am reflecting on the mistakes I made.    Two out of the four ended up that way. The first one was with 大嫂，or what some of my friends will know as "Beaver". It started off as a pure prank call, to joke that I had feelings for her( back in Sec 2, my brain probably wasn't functioning too well to understand thoughts and feelings yet). Then after,  to put it bluntly, I practically begged her to be my girlfriend despite her rejections ( Yes, shameless some will say.)   She eventually accepted me, but the feelings didn't last too long on my side, as I genuinely f...

  I wonder if it's just my one sided thinking, but I dont feel myself nowadays... That once determined thought of staying alone starts to crumble.. As much as I reinforce it, the recovery rate is much slower than the destruction rate.   Currently having holidays, been having a few part time jobs here and there, and spent some of those money on buying clothes for myself (I'm an avid shopper!)    Can't wait for results to be released, has been awhile since I became so worried over results..    Went back for NPCC Camp this week, had an enjoyable time with my cadets!    My "Guardpost" during camp hahaha~   I wanted to use the night during camp to write out this post, but I was probably too tired to do so, plus a few thoughts were hovering in my mind..   After camp, went to try out trampoline jumping for the first time! A pretty good workout   I would say, considering the amount of sweat produced!   Now for the usual last part,...