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It has been quite awhile since I last posted, for the regular readers (if there are any), I do apologise for the huge time gap in between to catch up on my updated posts! It's March already, and it has been quite a fruitful one so far. Basketball session with some of the class guys Started off the holiday with a much needed sports session, where I finally learned how to properly aim and shoot a basketball. I havn't been much of a sports person other than running, therefore it has been quite an enriching experience, still have much more to improve on though! Also managed to hang out at the treetop walk with my uncle, finishing the 8km hike in 3.5 hours at the Sime Road exit. Do hope to include a few runs in before School reopens so that Im able to pick up on my stamina and endurance again. Photo courtesy of fellow colleague! Managed to land an events job with an acquaintance this time, and I would say it was an eye-opening experience. Not that I haven't done events based job...

All those who know me will know that I seldomly share my heartfelt feelings with them. I always believe that no one should see how I look deep down inside. It's very easy for me to be smiling, but it is also very easy for me to break down as well. All it needs is just a trigger point. Honest to say, I have actually been down for the past few months. So much things has happened to my family, but all in all, I brushed it of with a smile. Just a few more years, just hang on. You have survived a decade, you definitely survive another few decades more. Or so I thought? It has really been a very tough period for me, and it is still happening. The days you hid under your blanket in fear, the moments you just wanted to cry out loud, the days you just wanted to be independent and have a house of your own. All these seems so distant, but how to live to that moment? Its not that I'm unwilling to share, but how many can understand the circumstances I'm in and the problems I face? It...

  Today was quite a tiring day for me, having spent almost the whole day outdoors. School in the morning till afternoon, and dinner with the birthday boy! I certainly feel honored to be invited to this dinner as it really means alot to me.   Moving on, this whole week has been a really tiring week for me, mentally tiring. It all comes to the time of the year where people are slotted into groups for projects with whines and rejections everywhere. Oh well. At least it's settled for now.. I hope.   The struggle is back. At one point of time, I thought everything went downhill and we had lost touch of one another, but now after what we had recently been through, I really have no idea what I am doing with my life now. I did mention that I should embrace the single life, so am I seeing the wrong things in life? It really wasn't easy because that personal commitment set is still etched in my mind. Have I really found the correct one? Or it is all gonna just burn up in flames? ...

Time check, 0117hrs Oi, why aren't you asleep!! Well.. Because I am hungry and I just gobbled food down, which gave me time for thoughts and feelings to flow again. This time around, different friends popped out from my memory, as I was enjoying my late night supper (I do not usually take supper) As we grow older, we tend to go for courses and etcetera and so on. When we go for these events, it is bound for us to remember the people who helped to make these events possible and possibbly livelier. However, will you consider them your friends just based upon that one meeting that both of you have faced? Even so, how will the both of you meet up after that? Pure coincidence?  It might not make sense up there ^ , but thats what I usually think about. Some friends come, some friends go. Some even mastered the art of "unfriending" so well that you are always a new face to them. Some friends.. Well, once they grab hold of key benificiary details that benefit them, they will ...

  Back here after a long while! Sorry if my update came late.. I normally write when I have the inspiration to do so, therefore sometimes when I just do not have the feel to write, and there you have it, no posts. Anyway, back to topic!   Ajisen Ramen has been a longtime favourite of mine for solo dining - yup, eating alone. As much as I enjoy the freedom and peace of eating alone, I just cannot withstand the stares from fellow diners who are normally dining in pairs or groups. When you are dining alone, you just feel that everyone is staring at you.   I mean, it's not a crime to eat alone right? Just because I am eating alone does not necessarily mean that I am a introvert or someone who everybody shuns.   However, not all is bad about it. At least, now I know that I am slowly adapting into the single life club hahahaha~ Having the courage to eat alone is an achievement in SG okay!! ;^o^; Exploring alone, being all alone.. Just you and your earpiece. No frequent...

After a month of being inactive, I'm backkk~~ :D Those who know will know why it took me so long to get back here, but I just find this place a really good spot to pour out my feelings to, in this world of mine.. Anyway, back to updates, all that's left is to turn up for the exams! 2 papers only, so gonna work really hard for it! GPA needs a much needed boost. Secondly, congratulations to me for my birthday!!! *insert clapping sounds* [so nice of me to "celebrate" my birthday here LOL] Thanks everyone for the well wishes, as well as the gifts by all, especially the 10 of you, you know whoo~ really appreciate it. :) But... I don't know. It's probably one sided like what Heidi said, or that I expect too much. For the 24 hours of my special day, I was waiting for that one message from her.  Waking up came.. SIP came.. Going home came.. Cutting of cake came.. Nap time came.. No well wish from her. None. I wouldn't say it's her fault at all, but it's ju...

Hi all, back here after a long while.. was still running a fever earlier in the day hahaha, but the time I felt ready to write has arrived again.   All these weeks in school, I received the results for my papers, and honestly, I really felt unjustified at first for failing that paper. However, I told myself to move on, that I managed to write down the fundamentals and that's all it matters.   Was back in school on Friday for Speech day, and honestly I felt worried. I thought that I will see her again, but for some reason she wasn't there. Whether its a sigh of relief or disappointment, it doesn't matter. What matters is that both of us don't have to go through the sorrows again..   Don't really have much to write as I go on.. but I'm getting tired of rumours. Not that I know those people as well, and leave such a reputation. Once or twice is fine, just not continuous reminders. 我真的很累。不想去对付那些传言了。就随它吧。 -zibinx- 12th July 2015