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Allow me to write this post when I'm on the way to work for internship! Over the weekend, two separate incidents gave me a new insight into this simple word that most leaders will say, is key to the success of almost any relationships, regardless whether it is that of family members or workmates. Incident 1: I was on bus 985 to Choa Chu Kang when it was reaching the interchange. A family of four boarded at the last stop prior to the interchange, which was also quite a few junctions away. You know how those new wheelchair buses have those backrests? The son went to lean on it once he boarded the bus. His sister and parents boarded after him, but the sister is also interested in leaning on the backrest. She leaned on it, and requested her brother to move aside for her to lean fully on the backrest. Reason being? "I've reserved it!" Of course, the brother didn't budge, and instead nudged her with his right elbow in a bid to shove her away. The mother saw the in...

"Age is but a number" What's with age this time round! Long story cut short, I met another part timer at an event I was at today. She is in Uni year 1 and I'm in poly year 3 as some of you will know. I was talking to her after her friend finshed work and the rest of her colleagues are occupied with the event. We belong to different companies but we were assigned with another two of our part timers also. I found out that she was Uni year 1 as mentioned above, that's when she remarked that I'm "so young" because I was in poly year 3. Well, I told her that there is only at most 2 years of difference between the both of us, which she agreed. [Sadly didnt managed to get either instagram or mobile number :( ] Back to topic, how does it relate? I always thought that age is just a number, nothing more to it. However, to some, it might matter a lot to them in the form of searching for their significant other. I recall a time where I was staying back in s...

Hello all!  I am finally back after my previous post, finally have the time to type my thoughts down, probably because I am down with flu haha, otherwise I do not think I will have the mood to write. If some of you here recall, I tend to write my posts in the wee hours of the morning, as that is the time I will have the most "feel" to write. Anyway, I have so many things to pen down, but let me start off with school life first, before carrying on with other things. Currently, 2 weeks of school life have almost passed, with 4 weeks more before internship! For those who are wondering, I only have 6 weeks of school this semester before I will embark on a 3 months internship. However, I still have to clear 2 modules beforehand, and these projects are already taking a toll despite my group's progress. I don't know if it's me, but I feel very tired of heading to school. I don't know if its due to the long semestral break before or the compact timetable we have no...

Hi all, sorry to keep you all waiting! I actually had much to comment on over the past few weeks with events I saw, but I was pretty much tired to blog because I was really, really tired from so many activities like camp, training for 2.4 and so on. Do give me time to slowly update it again as I also need time to sort my thoughts out as well! (Yes, alot of mindsets changed, stay tuned!) Ryan zibin 28 October 2016

Hello! This post would have came much earlier if I was not too worried of my grades for exams hahaha.. But I did it! I PASSED A MATHS WOOHOO~  I never expected a C+ grade (which translates to the range of 65-69 points out of 100) because I really thought I was going to re-module it. The paper was so tough but I tried my best to fill up all the questions and left no blanks. Results aside, I actually had so many things to update, but with the passing of time I actually forgotten some things I wanted to type. Oh well, let's just take it one step at a time, shall we? Firstly, Internship. I signed up for an interview session with an organisation (let's just name it as H) which was looking for interns doing HRIS, basically a computerised system of Human Resource Functions. Long story cut shout, I did not make the cut. However, what one of the interviewers remarked during the interview did gave me a new insight into my future. He said " You should be training and developm...

Hello guys, I am so sorry for the absence (if anyone is actually waiting for a post!) Was busy with Final Year Project and preparation of Examinations.  At least for now, FYP is done! Wow, that project alone took away most of my nights compiling slides and report and those meetings to correct my presentation skills. So tired of it but still hanged onto it!  Now moving into the main point of this post! I recently celebrated (or probably meant quietly passed) my 19th Birthday this week. Thank you for those who sent your well wishes! I was awaiting in anticipation for something to happen, but it didn't in the end. Oh well, the day passes by like any other day other! Just today, I accompanied a family member to a clinic. At the clinic, we were awaiting our time to consult the doctor when a father and daughter duo. I swear the father was probably too uptight or he was strict with his daughter who seemed like she is in primary school only. The father was scolding hi...

Wew, two presentations down in a week! So glad that its all over for those, since the guys really placed in a lot of effort to make it a funny skit presentation. For both modules, as only our group only consists of guys, we went a little extreme and crossdress... Of course the effect and laughter was there, but that isn't the main point hahaha After one of the presentations, the lecturer mentioned that sometimes, we as humans tend to overlook some features or actions we are ever so used to doing or mentioning. Why that statement? Well its because.. I impersonated her HAHAHAHA. But that comment didn't kicked in until I felt the full force of it today. You see, I never knew how people thought of me, because no one has ever came up to me, saying "oh you are too close for comfort", "you are freaking me out" or sorts. Not even in the young amd reckless days back in Secondary School. It is pretty sad to see someone saying that about me, but I guessed I deserve...

I have been drafting articles more frequently recently because I don't have a place to vent out all these frustration I had, both personal and school-wise. Well, if you happen to come across this and am thinking, "Hey, why have not you thought about me!" It's most probably because I didn't want to trouble any of you who passes by here. As most of you who have known me, you should know that I am the type of person who is extremely unwilling to make people worry for me.  On to the main topic, I was intrigued to write this article after realising how a day of events passes by in a flash. Nowadays, the emphasis is on rushing, rushing to get work done, rushing for the train, bus class, whatever it is. We have learnt to do things faster and to make things more efficient, even I myself am awed by my personal performance. I always have friends and my brothers who complained that I walk too fast to the extent that my leg barely touches the group before the other leg rises...

Somehow, thoughts and ideas only flow for me mostly when it's late into the night, and all that is accompanying me is nothing but silence. (Save for a few occasional snores) I have always thought I have had it all, and that nothing could be worse than what I had experienced before. Gruelling punishments, spiteful scoldings and heartbreaking quarrels, been there done that. However, one thing stays on, and that is on maintaining a stand between work and personal relationships. As friends, you joke around, you play around, it's alright, it's perfectly fine. But, when it comes to doing work, I normally expect high performance and quality work. There is a reason why we are given that amount of time to do work, I do not get the reason why some drag to the last moment to get things done. Is it me who is aiming too high? Or is it they who are not pushing hard enough? All that I know is, I'm tired. I have never felt as tired as this can get. "Just a few months more, you can...

For some of my loyal readers (if there's any hahahaha) here, you would have noticed the changes in blog links and names, I will touch on the part of names that I used to sign off with from then till now. T-Ryan zibinx Ryan zibin I might have touched on "T-ryan" before, where it sounds like a dinosaur name somehow. It was one of my earlier crushes I would say, and the name was coined by a mutual friend of ours, it lasted for a year or two in Lower Secondary before it evolved into the next name. For T, she is now overseas studying, happily attached. I wish the couple best of luck. zibinx was one of the longest sign off names that I have used, spanning over 4 to 5 years. It started off after I decided to chase someone I had wrongfully letten go of. There was a struggle because I am sure she had lost trust in me back then. Thenafter, someone was promoted to her class from the Normal Stream. They became close and somehow we started drifting apart again. We remain frie...

By pure chance or luck, I bumped into her today. Both of us exchanged shocked eye contact with those expanded eyes of ours, as we walk off in our respective directions. Took a glance back after a while, seeing that backview of hers fading into the crowd, I recalled the moment I saw you by chance. The happy, but shocked feeling, the inability to even say a proper hello and just gasping away. Somehow, I started to stutter even moments after the brief meeting. It might have lasted less than a few seconds, but the shock lingers on. Ryan zibin 7 July 2016

Wow, time really flies, a week has already passed since school reopened. I think I will skip the normal stuff about what happens in school and stuff since that will probably bore you guys out haha. Well, results wise, 2 papers left to collect, and 2 papers collected, but well what's done is done! You cannot undo things once it's done isn't it? Careless mistakes are called that name for a reason.. I wonder if it's fate on my side or fate playing with me, this semester we only had 3 modules that we have combined lectures and lectures are back to back, which meant lesser interactions with other classes. Well.. not many will know, but there is this negativity in me nowadays which I somehow can't swing off. I don't know if it's due to things happening at home, or school, or my life or a combination of all. However, I can at least safely say it has not bring upon an emotional breakdown as of yet. [Yeh I am still surviving on the outside, smiling and caring as a...

Phew, was really tired today after an intense exercise session. Went out with this best friend of mine today to run at the track surrounding the National Stadium. Somehow, I came in almost a full 3 minutes behind his time. Thenafter, when he was doing his planned set of pushups, he was saying how I wasn't like before because I get so tired nowadays. Oh well, havn't been exercising in awhile hahahah, should start my weekly running again.. This was an image that I had taken while at the tracks ( wanted to use it as an insta shot but nah, quite lazy to update insta nowadays hahahaha). I kind of like how the sunlight tries to shine through any gap, showcasing its everlasting glow. And this shot came after I left to take the bus at Kallang after our trip to Decathlon at Bedok. I always liked to take photos of sunlights because they tend to add some positivity to my life. I used to, probably still am striving to live a positive life, but there are always things in life that tr...

I was intrigued to write this post after coming across this episode of 《大学生了没》. Basically for those who had no idea, it is a Taiwanese variety show and this particular episode was on healing songs for those that had just broken up with their other halves in recent months.  Here is the link before I carry on with my thoughts and opinion: Http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eRFWFOVqBNg Well, after watching this episode, I really feel that I can relate to what some of them are going through, especially for the lady who was just fresh out of a relationship for only a week! She was overwhelmed by emotions throughout the episode, man that feel :( As the episode progresses, when the group of students start to share their breakup experiences, it is really heart wrenching to see how some of them are still unable to get over their relationships.  One of the experience shared was that she was forced to breakup because her ex boyfriend laid fingers on her, however she didn't want it to end at ...

Hi all,   This post came a few days late, but I was inspired to write this post because of an event I saw a few days back.   After the jog around campus with my close friend, we met up with another classmate to head out for lunch. We went to big box as recommended by our friend and we had the set lunches that were on the menu there.   Long story cut short, after the meal, both of them made their way to the restrooms while I just loitered outside, awaiting their return. The restroom was beside the travelator, so as per my usual attentive self, I started observing the people on the travelator. It didn't take long for me to notice a presumably secondary school couple in uniform hugging on the travelator.   Now, I am not condemning their actions. That scene just sparked off the topic in me about relationships. You see, for those who know me, I have already been in and out of a few relationships back then when I was young and reckless. I recall me seeing how some scho...

Hello guys, back here again after a long while.  Probably I will take this time to talk about my inner world, something thats rarely shown to much people. Most who know me probably know of the kindness I exhibit when Im around most of my friends, but not many know that I never exhibit the devilish side within me. You see, I never liked to criticise people outright. I always believed that everyone has the right to save their face or pride in front of anyone. However, Im very upset when see that someone is either not following the steps to something that is decided or when they do something stupid. As much as I wanted to scold and curse, all these negativity will be kept  within.  There are a few instances where I just lose my composure and cool and just fired off with words of anger that I really rarely use nowadays. Call me old-fashioned if you wish, but I always thought that crude words or profanities should never ever be used under any circumstances. Deep within, there'...

It has been quite awhile since I last posted, for the regular readers (if there are any), I do apologise for the huge time gap in between to catch up on my updated posts! It's March already, and it has been quite a fruitful one so far. Basketball session with some of the class guys Started off the holiday with a much needed sports session, where I finally learned how to properly aim and shoot a basketball. I havn't been much of a sports person other than running, therefore it has been quite an enriching experience, still have much more to improve on though! Also managed to hang out at the treetop walk with my uncle, finishing the 8km hike in 3.5 hours at the Sime Road exit. Do hope to include a few runs in before School reopens so that Im able to pick up on my stamina and endurance again. Photo courtesy of fellow colleague! Managed to land an events job with an acquaintance this time, and I would say it was an eye-opening experience. Not that I haven't done events based job...

All those who know me will know that I seldomly share my heartfelt feelings with them. I always believe that no one should see how I look deep down inside. It's very easy for me to be smiling, but it is also very easy for me to break down as well. All it needs is just a trigger point. Honest to say, I have actually been down for the past few months. So much things has happened to my family, but all in all, I brushed it of with a smile. Just a few more years, just hang on. You have survived a decade, you definitely survive another few decades more. Or so I thought? It has really been a very tough period for me, and it is still happening. The days you hid under your blanket in fear, the moments you just wanted to cry out loud, the days you just wanted to be independent and have a house of your own. All these seems so distant, but how to live to that moment? Its not that I'm unwilling to share, but how many can understand the circumstances I'm in and the problems I face? It...